February 26, 2011

A Doll

I chased you all my life
you kept running away
I wonder if you are my own shadow?
faster I run,faster you get away from me
do you know my little dream I hid under my pillow?
clutching the invisible teddy I faced all the demons
Still you came to me to set my dreams on fire
I wonder why I am punished throught my dream?
Will I ever wake up from this nightmare?
I wonder why I carry all the sins I never did
I wish just for a day of a fairy tale dream
that will wash away those dark shadows
I will cry aloud to announce my freedom
Will my dream ever come true?

February 25, 2011

Home Maker!

Recently I moved to a new place as a paying guest with a 5 member family.A father,Mother,a 6 year old,a 3 year old and a one year old and a maid.I have been amazed at times how the mother of the three children looks after the whole family in-spite of working as a full time executive.I have never seen her sit idle.She gets up (which I assume as I am not awake so early in the morning) at 5 and prepares breakfast and lunch for her husband.When I wake up,I see her cleaning the kitchen and sipping a tea and ready for the next task.Maid is still peacefully sleeping as her work time starts only after the Mother leaves for office.The lady now wakes up her elder son,which again is a difficult task and make him ready for the school.At times I see all three kids awake at the same time and the house is is echoing in the cranky morning songs.When one needs milk,other demands chocolate and it truly amazing to watch the lady deal with all the three kids and satisfy their needs.After sending the elder one to school ,she drops the 3 year old to play school on her way to work.
I see her come back from work really tired and before even she could even sit in a sofa,the complaints and demands starts.She then moves to kitchen to prepare dinner for the whole family and cleans the whole chaotic apartment.Then her next role as a tutor starts.Its time for looking after the homeworks of the kids.She now turns into a teacher.Its indeed a patience tester,to teach a kid when the other two are playing in the same room.After the hard fight,she waits for husband to return and gives him dinner and put the children to sleep with their bed time stories.The clock now ticks 11..I am sure she gets up in between the sleep everytime when they cough or cry in their sleep.Somedays I wonder if she ever gets to sleep when the kids are sick.
That ends her day.The so called father of the three children has just one role..A working Dad.
I am amazed that most of the ladies like her are taking so many roles in life.I really admire her.I feel so proud of the working mothers.I now wonder how frustrated my mother must have felt when I used to demand stuff when she gets back from work.
Its a special gift for females.They are indeed the best managers in the world.The hand that rocks the cradle rules the world indeed.I salute all those ladies out there .. :)

February 6, 2011

Bricks on my wall!

Just realised its been a while I scribbled in my space.Feels like I have so much to write,but some unknown element of deceit is crippling my words.May be what I am gonna scribble down is disoriented,but perfectly makes sense if you can read with a skewed outlook :)
Random Thought#1
Recently somebody told me that the reason for all my worries are because of my desires.Quiet possible!It is impossible for me to detach the 'Desires' from me as it has become an essential stimulus for moving ahead in life.Desires can be compromised to an extend to match our conveniences. Ironically I have noticed that most of my desires were either compromised or scraped off for the conveniences of others than for my own convenience.
Some say you have to turn into spirituality to get rid of your desires.But is it Human to have simple desires?
Random thought #2
Money is factor which we assume can over ride emotions, obstacles and even our fate.But do we get time to step back and think about those minds we are hurting on our way.The best excuse we can say is ‘It was unintentional’. Coming to think about it every one is selfish in our own way. Sometimes I wonder if there is someone who can love us unconditionally?
Random Thought # 3
Most of us realize at some point or the other that life is indeed unpredictable. Though we have ambitions, aspirations and well defined plans about future, we fail to realize at times that everything we have planned is indeed out of our control. In the resonance there might be a frequency that is gonna tear apart everything you have planned.
Random Thought # 4
I thought time is a good healer.Now that I am in a comfort zone with a bunch of new relationships,more people to love me,I realised I miss my Amma more and more.Now I realise I never made her special and told her how much I really loved her.For those who are blessed with their parents,Please take a moment to realise how blessed you are and make them feel special at times.. :)